Pyromaania

Every time I make it back to here, there is a reason. This time, I'm cleaning up my digital footprint. It is crazy times we live in. It is 2020, and the world has been hit with a pandemic. We are under the terror of the COVID19 virus, that is a SARS-like corona virus, it has been scientifically named SARS-CoV-2. It is microscopic, infects via breath ways and eyes, and can potentially ruin your life, cause severe brain damage, lung destruction and death. I have 3 friends who have died directly because of this, and people are not taking the pandemic situation seriously, in Los Angeles. I remember, at the New Years Eve party in 2019, as we were getting ready for 2020 to land, we were talking with a friend about a virus that's going to hit Australia and that something's up in China, but it probably won't make it to us.

Fast forward to the next most important thing ever - I got married.

You read that right, I am married. The amount of love I have for my wife is immeasurable.

We had our ceremony on the edge of the Grand Canyon, and I cried the entire time. The sun was setting. My good friend was officiating. Her parents and mine were there. My other good friend was taking photos.

This is still before the virus hit. This is when nobody had any idea of what was about to happen. NZ and Australia were already alert, aware, and thinking about it. Not much news than a deadly virus that's killed hundreds and overwhelmed the Chinese medical sector, and slowly its being mapped and figured out how fast it spreads. China allegedly tried to stop media from spreading about it, according to some people. I can't link any articles, I'm tired of linking articles at this point.

The mandatory lockdown in the US, for us in LA began March 17th. Full stay at home order, quarantine lockdown. Only essential businesses are allowed to move. And it was quiet. Unemployment ramped up, to currently 40+ Million people in America unemployed. And then, a man got forced into the ground and pinned down by an officer. There is a video of it online, of how he is trying to get air, saying to the officer " I can't breathe", as he is fading away. This was a trigger point that lit America, and parts of the world, on fire. The Black Lives Matters movement fortified its position, and clapped back. The thousands of people across the world that protested against police brutality, a rigged society of systemic racism, and the inequality that shouldn't be there to begin with. No Justice, No Peace has become a chant heard in every march - police officers are finally being sentenced, fired, jailed. People aren't accepting any more of that bullshit paid-leave.

This is all happening during a moment where the lockdown had just ended, and people thought maybe it might be safe to start going out again, doing things, seeing people. Memorial day came around, and Florida, New York, Los Angeles spike, and other cities are along their way. Contact tracers have been doing their jobs well, reports keep coming of how places were getting better, and then one person had to go and get infected, and spread it to their own community. It has many capabilites, this COVID. Incubation period 2-14 days, for most people standard symptoms arise on day between day 2-5. It creates fatigue, it slows you down, it breaks you apart as your body tries so hard to attack the virus. It can destroy your mouth, your brain, your eyes, your ears, your lungs and your heart. People have been in comas, some for weeks. Hospital bills are through the roof.

Pizza Gate is also uncovered, alongside the grand scheme of Jeffrey Epstein, Ghislaine Maxwell and associates. Pedophilia has run rampant in groups of power for a long time, and apparently many many people are claimed to be involved, just by association to these two names. Pizza Gate on the other hand is a pedofilia conspiracy that began during Trumps first election run, related to a pizza stores involvement in a child sex-trafficing ring.

Oh yeah, that happened ^. Trump is the president. He's done a lot of good. He's done much much more bad, just in terms of representing the country and the people on a global scale. Some serious foot in mouth syndrome, and the most terrible twitter game you've ever seen. And now we are at the cusp of the next elections since I last logged on - the 2020 primaries are here. With BLM, COVID19 and all these politics happening, messages get muddled, everything has become politically charged, people are becoming delinquent in their payments, losing houses to mortgages. People refusing to adhere to basic safety recommendations of distancing and wearing a face mask, something about infringing on their rights. I posted in the beginning of March - the depression is finally here. I wasn't kidding. And it's going to be a bitch. "Karen" has made it into the mainstream - the bitch who wants to speak with the manager is now every opinionated white lady who spews stupidity out of their mouth.

Honestly this is not at all what I intended to write, but it just came out. It's been a veery long time since I've penned down any thoughts. The world is a mess. Estonia is doing good. But life is hard, with my parents apart again, this time the fliperoonie of my dad being in Estonia and mom's back at home. She's got much to do around the house, but getting a little stir crazy, like everyone.

But I am well along in my career, I will have you know. My path has lead me to become a cinematographer. I have at this point shot shorts, a commercial or two, some music videos (with two in the works), shot a feature, got canned from the next one, got hired for the one after that, and am now in prep. But production will never be the same again with the world, now living with COVID.

My wife and I were looking forward to moving this year, to get a nicer place where we both have our own dedicated work spaces. Maybe get a new car (hell, I'll even take used, I just want to get out of town). I got myself my first Gunpla kit, MG 1/144 Unicorn RX0 I think its named. The pieces are so fucking tiny my fat sausages can't handle them.

That's about it I guess. I'd spew more on here, but I just really can't. The whole digital footprint thing and all. But in the mean time, be good. I miss you. You are not what you once were, dA, but I still have my backpack, that a wonderful deviant got me all those years ago. I carry it daily, and you and everything I've been through while on this platform and everthing I've learned here is still with me.

And you know what? You do that fucking update. People are pissy lil shits for denying change, when it is forever evolving. Progress means change, and change needs to be tested and found. You go, Glen Coco.